done.

Posted by MakeItCount
I've been meaning to write...but I suppose good intentions don't justify inaction...

I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, but I don't want to be anything but honest. I really don't care about Ellie anymore. I don't know if I've just fallen to apathy or I'm just wanting to move on, but I'm just "done."

I know...this sounds terrible. I know...I'm probably the last one expected to throw in the towel. But I'm not gonna lie or pretend that this is a life-changing thing for me. It's not that I'm not glad other people are really learning from this (and I'm not saying I haven't learned anything from this) - but honestly I feel a huge weakness is my ability to find something in anything (find a lesson in anything) but have my heart remain disconnected.

Only a few more days, I know.
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1 comments:

onethingprayer said...

I'm not gonna let you decieve yourself. You have made some incredible observations because of ellie. What is the definition of life changing anyway? Why keep on going when you have been granted an ANYTHING reward? You are not someone who does things out of form and function. If your heart says enough then that should be the end. You don't owe me anything and I will not be hurt by your plant experience being enough. See I can't tell you what enough is but you and God can decide what that is and I will rejoice with you.

September 25, 2009 at 5:48 PM

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