hope|sounds

I love to write - and I mean the old-school way with pen on paper. I started to document my journey with Ellie (my beautiful 2ft Neanthebella Palm) in a lovely Moleskine notebook, however, I find that keeping my own personal journal AND this one is a bit more than I can chew (time-wise), so I caved and decided to keep track of Ellie & I's journey here.

I left her at home last night because I knew I wouldn't be able to spend any quality time with her while at Onething helping out with the Comedy Show (I haven't made cookies in a long time lol).

But...if I'm being perfectly honest, I've been a little careless with her lately. (She was accidentally locked up in a cold, dark office for a night last week - sorry, Ellie!) I've kind of viewed her as something I have to "endure" instead of something I have the opportunity to "enjoy."

But I've realized there's a lesson in this. One of our other plant bearers at Onething mentioned they view their plant as "one more thing" - and, honestly, I had to agree with them to an extent. After careful consideration, I realize I feel this way because I do not see Ellie as a priority (among my many other "responsibilities"). She's kind of just...there. And I kind of just deal with her because I know she has a lot to teach me, but I don't always have/make the time I would like to sit down and listen to her.

I realize that I treat Jesus this way sometimes. I see him as just always...there, because I believe that he is - through thick and thin, ups and downs. But I know that I can take advantage of that sometimes. Sometimes he's not my priority. Sometimes I get frustrated in my quiet times because my mind is "anywhere but here."

I'm going to go spend some time with Ellie...maybe she has some words of wisdom she'd like to share with me today.